<h2><SPAN name="chap11"></SPAN>CHAPTER XI.<br/> THE PORTRESS’S CABINET.</h2>
<p>It was summer and very hot. Georgette, the youngest of Madame Beck’s
children, took a fever. Désirée, suddenly cured of her ailments, was, together
with Fifine, packed off to Bonne-Maman, in the country, by way of precaution
against infection. Medical aid was now really needed, and Madame, choosing to
ignore the return of Dr. Pillule, who had been at home a week, conjured his
English rival to continue his visits. One or two of the pensionnaires
complained of headache, and in other respects seemed slightly to participate in
Georgette’s ailment. “Now, at last,” I thought, “Dr.
Pillule must be recalled: the prudent directress will never venture to permit
the attendance of so young a man on the pupils.”</p>
<p>The directress was very prudent, but she could also be intrepidly venturous.
She actually introduced Dr. John to the school-division of the premises, and
established him in attendance on the proud and handsome Blanche de Melcy, and
the vain, flirting Angélique, her friend. Dr. John, I thought, testified a
certain gratification at this mark of confidence; and if discretion of bearing
could have justified the step, it would by him have been amply justified. Here,
however, in this land of convents and confessionals, such a presence as his was
not to be suffered with impunity in a “pensionnat de demoiselles.”
The school gossiped, the kitchen whispered, the town caught the rumour, parents
wrote letters and paid visits of remonstrance. Madame, had she been weak, would
now have been lost: a dozen rival educational houses were ready to improve this
false step—if false step it were—to her ruin; but Madame was not
weak, and little Jesuit though she might be, yet I clapped the hands of my
heart, and with its voice cried “brava!” as I watched her able
bearing, her skilled management, her temper and her firmness on this occasion.</p>
<p>She met the alarmed parents with a good-humoured, easy grace for nobody matched
her in, I know not whether to say the possession or the assumption of a certain
“rondeur et franchise de bonne femme;” which on various occasions
gained the point aimed at with instant and complete success, where severe
gravity and serious reasoning would probably have failed.</p>
<p>“Ce pauvre Docteur Jean!” she would say, chuckling and rubbing
joyously her fat little white hands; “ce cher jeune homme! le meilleur
créature du monde!” and go on to explain how she happened to be employing
him for her own children, who were so fond of him they would scream themselves
into fits at the thought of another doctor; how, where she had confidence for
her own, she thought it natural to repose trust for others, and au reste, it
was only the most temporary expedient in the world; Blanche and Angélique had
the migraine; Dr. John had written a prescription; voilà tout!</p>
<p>The parents’ mouths were closed. Blanche and Angélique saved her all
remaining trouble by chanting loud duets in their physician’s praise; the
other pupils echoed them, unanimously declaring that when they were ill they
would have Dr. John and nobody else; and Madame laughed, and the parents
laughed too. The Labassecouriens must have a large organ of
philoprogenitiveness: at least the indulgence of offspring is carried by them
to excessive lengths; the law of most households being the children’s
will. Madame now got credit for having acted on this occasion in a spirit of
motherly partiality: she came off with flying colours; people liked her as a
directress better than ever.</p>
<p>To this day I never fully understood why she thus risked her interest for the
sake of Dr. John. What people said, of course I know well: the whole
house—pupils, teachers, servants included—affirmed that she was
going to marry him. So they had settled it; difference of age seemed to make no
obstacle in their eyes: it was to be so.</p>
<p>It must be admitted that appearances did not wholly discountenance this idea;
Madame seemed so bent on retaining his services, so oblivious of her former
protégé, Pillule. She made, too, such a point of personally receiving his
visits, and was so unfailingly cheerful, blithe, and benignant in her manner to
him. Moreover, she paid, about this time, marked attention to dress: the
morning dishabille, the nightcap and shawl, were discarded; Dr. John’s
early visits always found her with auburn braids all nicely arranged, silk
dress trimly fitted on, neat laced brodequins in lieu of slippers: in short the
whole toilette complete as a model, and fresh as a flower. I scarcely think,
however, that her intention in this went further than just to show a very
handsome man that she was not quite a plain woman; and plain she was not.
Without beauty of feature or elegance of form, she pleased. Without youth and
its gay graces, she cheered. One never tired of seeing her: she was never
monotonous, or insipid, or colourless, or flat. Her unfaded hair, her eye with
its temperate blue light, her cheek with its wholesome fruit-like
bloom—these things pleased in moderation, but with constancy.</p>
<p>Had she, indeed, floating visions of adopting Dr. John as a husband, taking him
to her well-furnished home, endowing him with her savings, which were said to
amount to a moderate competency, and making him comfortable for the rest of his
life? Did Dr. John suspect her of such visions? I have met him coming out of
her presence with a mischievous half-smile about his lips, and in his eyes a
look as of masculine vanity elate and tickled. With all his good looks and
good-nature, he was not perfect; he must have been very imperfect if he
roguishly encouraged aims he never intended to be successful. But did he not
intend them to be successful? People said he had no money, that he was wholly
dependent upon his profession. Madame—though perhaps some fourteen years
his senior—was yet the sort of woman never to grow old, never to wither,
never to break down. They certainly were on good terms. <i>He</i> perhaps was
not in love; but how many people ever <i>do</i> love, or at least marry for
love, in this world. We waited the end.</p>
<p>For what <i>he</i> waited, I do not know, nor for what he watched; but the
peculiarity of his manner, his expectant, vigilant, absorbed, eager look, never
wore off: it rather intensified. He had never been quite within the compass of
my penetration, and I think he ranged farther and farther beyond it.</p>
<p>One morning little Georgette had been more feverish and consequently more
peevish; she was crying, and would not be pacified. I thought a particular
draught ordered, disagreed with her, and I doubted whether it ought to be
continued; I waited impatiently for the doctor’s coming in order to
consult him.</p>
<p>The door-bell rang, he was admitted; I felt sure of this, for I heard his voice
addressing the portress. It was his custom to mount straight to the nursery,
taking about three degrees of the staircase at once, and coming upon us like a
cheerful surprise. Five minutes elapsed—ten—and I saw and heard
nothing of him. What could he be doing? Possibly waiting in the corridor below.
Little Georgette still piped her plaintive wail, appealing to me by her
familiar term, “Minnie, Minnie, me very poorly!” till my heart
ached. I descended to ascertain why he did not come. The corridor was empty.
Whither was he vanished? Was he with Madame in the <i>salle-à-manger?</i>
Impossible: I had left her but a short time since, dressing in her own chamber.
I listened. Three pupils were just then hard at work practising in three
proximate rooms—the dining-room and the greater and lesser drawing-rooms,
between which and the corridor there was but the portress’s cabinet
communicating with the salons, and intended originally for a boudoir. Farther
off, at a fourth instrument in the oratory, a whole class of a dozen or more
were taking a singing lesson, and just then joining in a
“barcarole” (I think they called it), whereof I yet remember these
words “fraîchë,” “brisë,” and “Venisë.”
Under these circumstances, what could I hear? A great deal, certainly; had it
only been to the purpose.</p>
<p>Yes; I heard a giddy treble laugh in the above-mentioned little cabinet, close
by the door of which I stood—that door half-unclosed; a man’s voice
in a soft, deep, pleading tone, uttered some, words, whereof I only caught the
adjuration, “For God’s sake!” Then, after a second’s
pause, forth issued Dr. John, his eye full shining, but not with either joy or
triumph; his fair English cheek high-coloured; a baffled, tortured, anxious,
and yet a tender meaning on his brow.</p>
<p>The open door served me as a screen; but had I been full in his way, I believe
he would have passed without seeing me. Some mortification, some strong
vexation had hold of his soul: or rather, to write my impressions now as I
received them at the time I should say some sorrow, some sense of injustice. I
did not so much think his pride was hurt, as that his affections had been
wounded—cruelly wounded, it seemed to me. But who was the torturer? What
being in that house had him so much in her power? Madame I believed to be in
her chamber; the room whence he had stepped was dedicated to the
portress’s sole use; and she, Rosine Matou, an unprincipled though pretty
little French grisette, airy, fickle, dressy, vain, and mercenary—it was
not, surely, to <i>her</i> hand he owed the ordeal through which he seemed to
have passed?</p>
<p>But while I pondered, her voice, clear, though somewhat sharp, broke out in a
lightsome French song, trilling through the door still ajar: I glanced in,
doubting my senses. There at the table she sat in a smart dress of
“jaconas rose,” trimming a tiny blond cap: not a living thing save
herself was in the room, except indeed some gold fish in a glass globe, some
flowers in pots, and a broad July sunbeam.</p>
<p>Here was a problem: but I must go up-stairs to ask about the medicine.</p>
<p>Dr. John sat in a chair at Georgette’s bedside; Madame stood before him;
the little patient had been examined and soothed, and now lay composed in her
crib. Madame Beck, as I entered, was discussing the physician’s own
health, remarking on some real or fancied change in his looks, charging him
with over-work, and recommending rest and change of air. He listened
good-naturedly, but with laughing indifference, telling her that she was
“trop bonne,” and that he felt perfectly well. Madame appealed to
me—Dr. John following her movement with a slow glance which seemed to
express languid surprise at reference being made to a quarter so insignificant.</p>
<p>“What do you think, Miss Lucie?” asked Madame. “Is he not
paler and thinner?”</p>
<p>It was very seldom that I uttered more than monosyllables in Dr. John’s
presence; he was the kind of person with whom I was likely ever to remain the
neutral, passive thing he thought me. Now, however, I took licence to answer in
a phrase: and a phrase I purposely made quite significant.</p>
<p>“He looks ill at this moment; but perhaps it is owing to some temporary
cause: Dr. John may have been vexed or harassed.” I cannot tell how he
took this speech, as I never sought his face for information. Georgette here
began to ask me in her broken English if she might have a glass of <i>eau
sucrée</i>. I answered her in English. For the first time, I fancy, he noticed
that I spoke his language; hitherto he had always taken me for a foreigner,
addressing me as “Mademoiselle,” and giving in French the requisite
directions about the children’s treatment. He seemed on the point of
making a remark; but thinking better of it, held his tongue.</p>
<p>Madame recommenced advising him; he shook his head, laughing, rose and bid her
good-morning, with courtesy, but still with the regardless air of one whom too
much unsolicited attention was surfeiting and spoiling.</p>
<p>When he was gone, Madame dropped into the chair he had just left; she rested
her chin in her hand; all that was animated and amiable vanished from her face:
she looked stony and stern, almost mortified and morose. She sighed; a single,
but a deep sigh. A loud bell rang for morning-school. She got up; as she passed
a dressing-table with a glass upon it, she looked at her reflected image. One
single white hair streaked her nut-brown tresses; she plucked it out with a
shudder. In the full summer daylight, her face, though it still had the colour,
could plainly be seen to have lost the texture of youth; and then, where were
youth’s contours? Ah, Madame! wise as you were, even <i>you</i> knew
weakness. Never had I pitied Madame before, but my heart softened towards her,
when she turned darkly from the glass. A calamity had come upon her. That hag
Disappointment was greeting her with a grisly “All-hail,” and her
soul rejected the intimacy.</p>
<p>But Rosine! My bewilderment there surpasses description. I embraced five
opportunities of passing her cabinet that day, with a view to contemplating her
charms, and finding out the secret of their influence. She was pretty, young,
and wore a well-made dress. All very good points, and, I suppose, amply
sufficient to account, in any philosophic mind, for any amount of agony and
distraction in a young man, like Dr. John. Still, I could not help forming half
a wish that the said doctor were my brother; or at least that he had a sister
or a mother who would kindly sermonize him. I say <i>half</i> a wish; I broke
it, and flung it away before it became a whole one, discovering in good time
its exquisite folly. “Somebody,” I argued, “might as well
sermonize Madame about her young physician: and what good would that do?”</p>
<p>I believe Madame sermonized herself. She did not behave weakly, or make herself
in any shape ridiculous. It is true she had neither strong feelings to
overcome, nor tender feelings by which to be miserably pained. It is true
likewise that she had an important avocation, a real business to fill her time,
divert her thoughts, and divide her interest. It is especially true that she
possessed a genuine good sense which is not given to all women nor to all men;
and by dint of these combined advantages she behaved wisely—she behaved
well. Brava! once more, Madame Beck. I saw you matched against an Apollyon of a
predilection; you fought a good fight, and you overcame!</p>
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